Returning to music was never part of a neat, pre-planned timeline. At 17, I stepped away from singing as life took over. For years, my passion lay dormant until I made a conscious choice to step back towards my voice. In doing so, I unlocked something I never knew existed inside me: the ability to write songs.
As an artist, my music lives in the electropop space, but lyrically, I aim to dive much deeper than standard dance tracks. I write about pivotal moments—the ones that force real inner change and leave a permanent imprint on who you are.
“Love Arsonist” sits at the very heart of that artistic identity.
The Story Behind the Track
The roots of the song trace back to a toxic, narcissistic relationship I experienced in 2014. Healing from an abusive dynamic is rarely a straight line; messiness isn’t linear. The line “See through your lies, helpless no less” captures the reality of being trapped in that spell. Even when you consciously recognise you are being lied to, part of you desperately resists accepting it.
Like many toxic dynamics, I was eventually discarded and replaced, left to rebuild myself from absolute zero. That recovery took years of navigating self-sabotage, unpicking trauma, and slowly learning to heal.
Writing “Love Arsonist” became a definitive act of reclamation. Over time, I came to realise that the only reason I fell into that trap was because I had deeply unhealed wounds that were exploited. Without internal lack to leverage, an abuser has no power over you.
The chorus serves as that vital line in the sand:
You don’t own me now,
Left on the floor, esteem at war.
You don’t control me now.
The narcissist love arsonist.
The Creative Evolution
When I sit down to write, it often feels as though the songs are delivered from somewhere else—the melody and lyrics just arrive. But finding the definitive sonic home for “Love Arsonist” took time.
It first surfaced in 2023 as a rough rock demo titled Narcissist, but it felt incomplete. In 2024, I stripped it back into a pared-down synthpop version called Capsized Heart, yet it still hadn’t fully arrived.
This final release is the complete evolution of what the track was always meant to be. Drawing heavy sonic inspiration from the sleek, driving energy of Adam Lambert’s “Underneath the Rhythm,” the production pairs wide synths with crisp, robotic beat cuts. The synth-heavy precision reflects the cold calculation of the past, while the electronic pulse drives the track forward into clear, decisive space. Taking its title from the final line of the chorus, “Love Arsonist” finally feels complete.
A Message for the Listener
Ultimately, I didn’t write “Love Arsonist” just to document the past—I wrote it for anyone currently picking up their own pieces.
If you’re in the middle of a similar struggle, I want you to feel seen. The shame and embarrassment you might feel for falling for a liar is an unhelpful distraction. You are not alone, and there is clear ground on the other side of it. Even when someone sets fire to your world, you retain the power to rebuild—and choose how you step forward.